April 19, 2020
Dear Diary (I feel like I’m about to bust out in an opening number like in the musical The Heathers), for 20 long years I have struggled and battled my weight. Every single diet has been tried and tested, the scale has gone up and down so often that I’ve probably lost and gained an entire elephant collectively. The clothes have gotten tighter. The number on the scale has continued to rise.
And honestly, I’m over it.
I have always said tomorrow I will start a diet. Tomorrow will be the day that my life will change. Well, fast forward 20 years and I’m still in the same position.
Enough is enough. Because I am beyond exhausted with the struggle. I’m tired of hiding. I no longer can struggle with this issue if I want the future that I dream of.
My goal is to document daily the honest truth about the harships, the cravings and the thought process of someone who is trying to lose a large amount of weight, in hopes that the accountability motivates and inspires me to reach the goal.
I want to lose 100 pounds in 100 days. Is it possible? We are going to find out!
I am not a health professional or dietician. If attempting a new diet or regimen, consult your doctor.
The Wakeup Call
I have had so many wakeup calls when it has come to my weight that should have shaken me enough to act.
I have been asked on multiple occassions if I am pregnant or when I am due.
I have had panic attacks on roller coasters because I couldn’t fit properly in the seat or buckle it properly.
I was passed up for leading roles in theater because they told me I was overweight.
I have had someone comment on my wedding pictures that I am huge and ugly.
I have been unable to buck my seat belt on an airplane flight.
I have had my own friends and family sit me down and confront me about my problem overeating.
And if the scale wasn’t wakeup call enough…
I sat down and thought about the future that I wanted and the truth is, I want more. It’s all about changing your mindset and rewiring how you think about food and health. I am beyond ready to put in the work fixing the issues so that I can fulfill all the dreams that God has given me. I don’t want another wakeup call.
The Game Plan
I saw the scale at 270 and gasped. How did I ever get to this point?
April 19th: 270 lbs
I decided to make a goal of losing 100lbs in 100 days and see if it was possible.
I have consulted multiple health experts and weighed in on their opinions and the best way to do this for me.
FOOD: After developing an eating plan, for 100 days I will eat no gluten, sugar, dairy, grains, soy or eggs. (This is an auto immune diet suggested because of hypothyroid and autoimmune issues to help get me back on track to complete health.)
This means I will be sticking to grassfed/antibiotic free lean meats such as beef, chicken and fish for protein, along with lots of lots of fresh organic veggies.
FITNESS: Building up my endurance with daily walks, bike rides, lap swims and Peloton rides, combined with a weightlifting plan daily.
My personal goal is to reach a normal routine of 20 miles of some kind of activity a day, be able to run a 5k and enjoy an entire day in an amusement park.
HOME: I will also be switching all my household products, soaps, cleaning products, makeup, etc to non toxic clean products. (If you’re interested in shopping at the same place with discounted prices, message me here)
The reason I’m doing this is to get rid of any hinderance on my hormones so that they can balance back out after the years of damage. Almost all storebought products have horrible chemicals that can cause cancer and disrupt your hormones. It’s time to reverse that!
SIZE: Technically my goal is to get down to 150 (BMI of 25 in normal range). 170 would be 100lbs down from where I am now at 270 (BMI of 45 in morbidly obese range). I would like to hit 170 by July 28th 2021 to have lost 100lbs in 100 days.
I would like to get down to a comfortable size 8. But in all reality, it’s all about how I feel, not the number on the scale or on the tag.
The Why
Why am I doing this you may ask?
My honest answer. I want to be able to fulfill my purpose.
And my goal ultimately is to be a mother, that is why this journey has become more serious now that I am married and heading in that direction.
I want to be healthy beyond all else, able to have children and keep up with them with my hubs til I’m old and gray.
I am also doing this to prove to myself that I can do this. I have tried and failed more times than I can count. It’s time to put in the hard work, quit making excuses, treat my body like a temple and take care of myself. I’m sick of wasting time.
I have a million reasons why I need to do this, but I just need to stop eating myself to death and take care of my health. I can’t keep going around and around in the same circle with no results. I want to fully participate in my life instead of living less than God’s best for me.
My future is just sitting there waiting for me and I am going to get there! That is my why.
Let’s do this!
xo S