4/19 Starting Weight: 270
4/23 Today’s Weight: 260
10 pounds down, 90 to go!
Yesterday, I was bed ridden from a bruised tailbone. I was unable to sit on my behind, so I had to lay on my stomach most of the day. I wasn’t able to exercise or do any cardio. So frustrating!
I have a habit of watching the food network on tv. My mouth waters as I dream of the infinte combinations of flavor pairings. Then I start thinking about what I want to eat right now.
My husband has the metabolism of a viking. He can eat anything he wants without gaining a pound. And even after he eats, he still has his 8-pack intact. So needless to say, he can eat whatever he wants.
And just because I’m on a specific diet, I don’t want to force him to do it with me. He eats relatively healthy, but he still likes a good pint of ice cream and pasta every other day.
At times, that can be hard for me. Because he isn’t watching his figure, he always wants to go and get dessert or snacks for movie nights or eat things that I just cannot eat. I look at a grape and gain 5 pounds.
If you are truly going to lose weight or just live healthier, you cannot rely on other people to eat perfectly around you. You don’t want other people walking on tiptoes or to be nervous to eat the things they love around you.
It requires an amount of dicipline, a discipline I did not have for years.
Even yesterday, Brandon was craving dessert. He was naming ice creams and pastries that he was wanting and I was starting to drool.
He settled for a large red velvet cupcake with cream cheese icing.
He was too tired so I went to the store to pick it up for him and it took everything in me not to get one for myself. Or more like 5…
I refrained because I remembered why I am doing this. I want to feel better. I have a future I am aiming towards.
We must remember that food is temporary.
We eat it and then it leaves our bodies. We spend too much money on meals that don’t last very long.
Food is fuel to keep our bodies going, for energy and to keep us functioning properly. I also believe that God gave us food to enjoy. There is just a balance that we need to learn, and it’s harder for some than others.
There are going to be temptations all around us every single day. Temptation to eat things we shouldn’t and to overeat. Temptation to binge and eat more than we know we should. Temptation to eat out and spend too much money on food we know that we don’t need. Temptation to give up because we made a mistake and say that we will just start over tomorrow. Temptation just to hang up the towel completely.
There will be temptation all around you. And whatever your temptation is, you are an overcomer. You are victorious. Food doesn’t control you. Temptation doesn’t control you. You control it.
We are stronger than we think. There are no excuses that are valid anymore, you’ve used them all up. (At least, that’s what I have to tell myself, because it is true.)
I got this. Do you?
xo, S.
Catch up on the whole journey>>
Day 1 The wakeup call, the game plan & the “why”
Day 2 The habits to break & symptoms to shake
Day 3 The fat girl revelations
Day 4 The scale obsession