4/19 starting weight: 270
4/22 today’s weight: 266
Gain of 4lbs!
4lb loss total
This morning I woke up to the scale saying I gained 4 lbs. I immediately became discouraged and wanted to give up.
Yesterday was rough. I was struggled with a bruised tailbone and it made it excruciating to exercise. I went to the gym trying to power through the pain and got onto the Peloton. I couldn’t sit down at all because the pain was just too much.
I rode on that bike with high resistence for 40 minutes in a standing jog position. I could only get in 10 miles. And that is 10 miles less than my goal of 20 miles. I felt like a failure.
My husband decided to take me to my favorite restaurant for lunch to cheer me up. I ordered grilled chicken, an improvement from the pasta I would normally order.
So when I woke up this morning to see that the scale had gone up, I had to remind myself that I did everything that I could. I drank lots of water, exercised and ate healthy. I refuse to beat myself up.
It could be muscle. It could be water weight. But either way, my body is adjusting to the changes I am making day my day.
But let me tell you, that scale can become an obsession…
The Scale Obsession
As an avid dieter, the scale can be your biggest cheerleader or biggest discourager.
I began one diet years ago under the supervision of a doctor who specialized in a quick formulated weightloss diet. He told me to check the scale every single day and if I don’t lose at least a pound a day, I’m doing something wrong.
That is just one example of the weird thought processes I’ve developed after years of going to doctors, nutritionists and dieticians. And once those thoughts are planted, they tend to stay. They get all twisted up and develop a personal set of beliefs.
I had to learn what’s best for me.
A lot of people will tell me, “Don’t weight yourself every day. That’s bad. You’ll just get discouraged. That’s not healthy.”
For me personally, I like weigh myself everyday. Other’s opinions honestly doesn’t matter to me because I am comfortable with it.
There may be days that I see the scale and it discourages me, but that’s okay! That’s a part of life. Because I must pick myself up and learn how to move forward despite what the scale says. The scale does not define me.
I feel better. My clothes fit better. The number on the scale is just a guideline.
Maybe you don’t like to weigh yourself everyday, and that’s okay too. Do what’s best for you.
The scale can be your worst enemy or your best friend. Some people are religious with their scale and let it define their journey. It’s so important to develop a healthy relationship with the scale, not an obsession.
You are beautiful, valuable and wanted regardless of the number.
So when I saw that number this morning, I got discouraged. But after a moment, I reminded myself that I’m doing the best I can. It takes time and I refuse to beat myself up over it.
Let’s start developing healthy weight habits, one day at a time.
Cheers to a better tomorrow,
xo, S