4/19 Starting weight: 270
4/30 Last known weight: 254
Today’s weight: Unknown
This past weekend, my husband and I took a little getaway to Myrtle Beach to visit my best friend and her family.
When I walked in the door, the smell of seasoned beef, queso, and buffalo chicken dip filled the air. I immediately reminded myself that I am strong.
I examined the elaborate spread of chips, dips, tacos and desserts she had prepared to celebrate our arrival. She even made my favorite ooey gooey chocolate peanut butter cake that we loved to eat as kids.
The house was filled with hugs, laughter, memories and lots of delicious food. I knew that I may have more than normal portion sizes this weekend, but I didn’t want to eat gluten or sugar of any kind, most importantly.
If you remember my sugar withdrawal experience, I did not want go have to go through that again after I worked so hard to power through that hard week. But I felt like I was on an episode of Temptation Island!
I opted for a taco salad. I loaded up on lettuce, added some beef and veggies and indulged with a dollop of sour cream on top. I also allowed myself to have a few gluten free tortilla chips. It was amazing! I don’t know why I always felt the need to stuff things into a taco shell or burrito because it is just as good without!
When it came to the cake, I watched as my beautiful friend ate one piece and then another. She and her husband are super athletic and can most definitely afford to eat whatever they want, whenever they want. I was gaining weight just by looking at that cake.
I reminded myself that I would be able to make that cake and eat it again one day, but that day was just not today. I declined having a slice, even if it may have been vacation for me. I lived vicariously through all of those that did partake in that mouthwatering dessert.
And to be honest, after detoxing the sugar, I don’t really crave sugary things anymore. I don’t feel like I missed out or that I want a donut when I pass Krispe Kreme. It doesn’t phase me anymore. It’s just not worth it with how it makes my body feel.
We went to the pool, floated down the lazy river and soaked up the sun…til lunchtime. We all had a choice between pizza, subs and chinese.
I went through my options quickly in my head. What is the best thing I can eat without having gluten or feeling yucky? I opted for chicken and brocolli from the local chinese takeout place and skipped eating most of the rice.
Saturday night was the real doozy. We went to this classy sushi restaurant with my friend and her husband. They were so sweet for taking us to such a nice place. They ordered homemade hummus and pita to start as an appetizer.
I started to drool and pretend it wasn’t there. I could almost 100% guarantee that pita bread had gluten in it. It was sitting right in front of me and they kept saying how good it was. I took a bite and then another. Luckily I only had a few bites.
But I think I needed to allow myself to have a moment (even if it was considered cheating). I needed to be able to pick myself back up and not let it derail me. I had to be able to bounce back without letting it ruin all my progresss.
My husband looked at me and whispered, “It’s okay. Just do better tomorrow. This doesn’t ruin anything. Tomorrow is a new day. You got this.” I smiled and we proceeded to stuff our faces with the most amazing sushi.
And you know what, I didn’t feel guilty about it. I only had a few bites of gluten over the whole weekend. Sure, I may have had more than the normal portion sizes, but I stuck to my plan.
As for exercise, the weekend was so jam packed that we didn’t end up having time or making time for it. We were constantly on the go.
So as we came drove the 8 hours home today, my husband ordered his ellaborate starbucks (twice!) and I sat there proud of the weekend. And overjoyed that I got to spend time with some of the most wonderful people and forever friends.
I don’t know what I weigh today but I am going to start weighing myself again tomorrow morning.
In order to stay on track, by Saturday (day 20), I need to be at 250 pounds. I can do it! I just need to pick up where I left off and get back in the gym tomorrow.
Navigating vacation on a diet can be extremely hard, especially when you’re on an island of temptation. But as long as you stick to your main goals and stay focused on the prize, you will be fine. I allowed myself a little bit of leeway, but stuck to my main goals.
I’m ready to tackle the week and ready to continue looking forward, because there is a beautiful future ahead of me.
Til tomorrow,
xo S
Catch up on the the series!>>
Day 1: The wakeup call, the game plan & the “why”
Day 2: The habits to break & symptoms to shake
Day 3: The fat girl revelations
Day 4: The scale obsession
Day 5: The temptations
Day 6: The sugar withdrawal
Day 7: The personal trainer
Day 8: The noticeable changes
Day 9: The diet mentality
Day 10: The intervention & motivation
Day 11: The real test