The Habits to Break & Symptoms to Shake // 100lbs in 100 Days (2/100)

Day 1 Starting Weight: 270 lbs
Day 2 Today’s Weight: 266 lbs
Weightloss of 4 lbs!
96 lbs left to reach the goal!

I didn’t expect to lose 4 pounds overnight. I assume it’s just water weight because if you watch any season of The Biggest Loser, you notice that the heavier you are, the more weight you lose in the beginning.

For today’s workout, I decided to do 20 miles on the Peloton.
I took a 45 minute EDM ride and finished with 9.75 miles.
I took another 45 minute Pop ride and finished with 8.25 miles.
I finished the last 2 miles of 20 by just riding to my own music.

I wanted to cry. I was out of breath, dripping in sweat, getting cramps in my sides and radiating pain in my tailbone. But I was determined to finish, even though my level of enthusiasm and endurance wained with every passing minute.

But let me tell you, when I was done, it was so rewarding to think that this is the first time I’ve ever ridden more than 15 miles on the bike at one time. Granted, it’s only day one.

I will shake up my workouts daily so I don’t get bored or too content with one thing. I want to expand my horizons.
Just sharing this stuff with the world (whether anyone reads it or not) is out of my comfort zone.

But I guess that is what weight loss and transformation is, stepping outside your comfort zone. Getting uncomfortable by pushing yourself with exercise, getting uncomfortable by eating healthy food even though you really just want to binge in front of the tv, getting uncomfortabe by changing habits and mindsets that you’ve had for years.

One day at a time, stepping outside our comfort zone.

The Habits to Break

There are many habits that I would like to break on this journey and replace with new habits. I think we all can relate to that…

Negative self talk
I have the habit of throwing out jokes about my weight and appearance to laugh at myself before anyone else gets the chance to.
And if I’m close to you, you’ve heard me sit and cry about how fat and ugly I think that I am.
This must change.

Giving up easily
I have tried every diet that you can possibly name and at some point, I have given up (obviously, or we wouldn’t be here)
I have given up on diets, exercise, dreams and goals.
I want to actually reach the finish line.

Making excuses
Have you ever said, “tomorrow I will start my diet, but today I’m going to eat as much as I can”? Or how about that diets can only begin at the start of a week, month or year?
I have made every excuse in the book to avoid starting or sticking to a health plan. No more!

Eating too big of portion sizes
I have always struggled with the amount of food intake because I feel like I am never full and food tastes so darn good.
I am going to take the time to learn proper portion sizes and retraining my brain/body into eating normal meals. No more eating 10 tacos from Taco Bell and a whole cake in one sitting.

Eating in front of the tv
I have had the horrid habit of eating only in front of the tv. For some reason, I enjoy television and movies more if I am stuffing my face. I don’t know if it is an emotional or comfort thing, but I will making a rule of no food in front of the tv for now and taking the time to sit at the table and enjoy my meals.

Equating my worth and future with how much I weigh
For years I thought that I could never find a husband if I didn’t lose weight. I could never have children if I didn’t lose weight. I could never acheive that goal or reach that dream if I didn’t lose weight. And that is a lie. I am just as valuable as an obese person as I would be if my weight were normal.
I believe I have a beautiful future ahead of me regardless of the number on the scale or how big I am and I need to work on believing that 100% of the time.

The Symptoms to Shake

I remember going to the doctor a few years ago and giving a longggg list of symptoms I was struggling with.

One doctor told me I was making up my symptoms. I started sobbing and left her office.
One doctor told me it was a thyroid issue, hormonal disorder or an auto immune disease.
One doctor told me it was just because I was obese.
None of them gave me answers…they just referred me to other doctors to look further into it.

This is the list of symptoms I struggle with on a daily basis. I am praying and believing that as I get my health under control, that they disappear.

-Fatigue (It’s hard to get anything done after 2pm because I’m so exhausted)
-Insomnia
-Neverending hunger
-Blinding headaches
-Bloating
-Horrific menstual cramps
-Numbness in hands and feet
-Joint pain and muscle aches
-Weight gain
-Brittle nails and hair
-Brain fog/forgetfulness
-Depression
-Back pain
-Candida overgrowth
-Mood swings
-Low vitamin D
-Acid reflux
-Food intolerances

Just to name a few…

I truly believe that as I start taking care of my temple the way God intended me to, that my body is going to heal and repair itself. I am believing for complete healing.

I can’t do this lifestyle transformation on my own. I know that I can’t lose this weight on my own. I can’t, but Jesus can. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

I want to hear from you!
What are the habits you are trying to break? What are the symptoms you are trying to shake on your health journey?

xo, S