Day 1/100 The Starting Over
Starting Weight: 270
Dear Diary,
(I feel like I’m about to bust out in an opening number like in the musical The Heathers), for 20 long years I have struggled and battled my weight. Every single diet has been tried and tested, the scale has gone up and down so often that I’ve probably lost and gained an entire elephant collectively. The clothes have gotten tighter. The number on the scale has continued to rise.
And honestly, I’m over it.
This is my 2nd attempt at this 100 in 100 journey. 100 pounds in 100 days is a lofty goal, and many have said isn’t healthy or even achievable. But I say to you, nothing is impossible.
I have been off the wagon for a few months now. Everyday I have said, tomorrow I will start over.
Starting over isn’t always easy. It can be embarrassing, disappointing, and frustrating. But we need to be okay with starting over.
I have always said tomorrow I will start a diet. Tomorrow will be the day that my life will change. No more tomorrows. No day but today.
Because fast forward 20 years and I’m still in the same position.
Enough is enough. Because I am beyond exhausted with the struggle. I’m tired of hiding. I no longer can struggle with this issue if I want the future that I dream of.
My goal is to document daily the honest truth about the hardships, the cravings and the thought process of someone who is trying to lose a large amount of weight, in hopes that the accountability motivates and inspires me to reach the goal.
I want to lose 100 pounds in 100 days. Is it possible? Join me to find out.
I am not a health professional or dietician. If attempting a new diet or regimen, consult your doctor.
THE WAKEUP CALL
I have had so many wakeup calls when it has come to my weight that should have shaken me enough to act.
I have been asked on multiple occasions if I am pregnant or when I am due.
I have had panic attacks on roller coasters because I couldn’t fit properly in the seat or buckle it properly.
I was passed up for leading roles in theater because they told me I was overweight.
I have had someone comment on my wedding pictures that I am huge and ugly.
I have been unable to buck my seat belt on an airplane flight.
I have had my own friends and family sit me down and confront me about my problem overeating.
And if the scale wasn’t wakeup call enough…
THE PLAN
At the beginning of 2021, I saw the scale tipping at 282 and gasped. How did I ever get to this point?
After staying on track for a while, I made it down to 237. But at some point, I gave up and the scale creeped up once again.
Starting over, we are beginning at the weight of 270lbs with the goal of getting down to 170lbs.
I decided to make a goal of losing 100lbs in 100 days and see if it was possible.
I have consulted multiple health experts and weighed in on their opinions and the best way to do this for me.
FOOD: After developing an eating plan, for 100 days I will eat no gluten, sugar, dairy, or soy. (This is an auto immune diet suggested because of hypothyroid and autoimmune issues to help get me back on track to complete health.) If I mess up, I pick myself up and get right back on track.
This means I will be sticking to grass fed/antibiotic free lean meats such as beef, chicken and fish for protein, along with lots of lots of fresh organic veggies.
FITNESS: Building up my endurance with daily walks, bike rides, lap swims and Peloton rides, combined with a weightlifting plan daily.
My personal goal is to be able to run a 5k (maybe to celebrate reaching the final goal, I will complete a Disney World 5k?!), be able to enjoy an entire day in an amusement park and be at my healthiest self to have a baby.
HOME: I have switched all my household products, soaps, cleaning products, makeup, etc to non toxic clean products.
The reason I’m doing this is to get rid of any hindrance to my hormones so that they can balance back out after the years of damage. Almost all store bought products have horrible chemicals that can cause cancer and disrupt your hormones. It’s time to reverse that!
SIZE: Technically my ultimate goal is to get down to 150 (BMI of 25 in normal range). But I would like to hit 170 by December 17th 2021 to have lost 100lbs in 100 days.
THE WHY
Why am I doing this you may ask?
My honest answer. I want to be able to fulfill my purpose and learn to treat my body the way it should be treated. To learn to love myself, big or small, but to be the healthiest I’ve ever been.
And my goal ultimately is to be a mother, that is why this journey has become more serious now that I am married and heading in that direction.
I want to be healthy beyond all else, able to have children and keep up with them with my hubs til I’m old and gray.
I am also doing this to prove to myself that I can do this. I have tried and failed more times than I can count. It’s time to put in the hard work, quit making excuses, treat my body like a temple and take care of myself. I’m sick of wasting time.
I could do this for “revenge” against all the people who had ever hurt me with their hurtful words. But I am not a victim, I am a victor. I must do this for me and for my future, because it’s worth it.
I have a million reasons why I need to do this, but I just need to stop eating myself to death and take care of my health. I can’t keep going around and around in the same circle with no results. I want to fully participate in my life instead of living less than God’s best for me.
Starting over is hard, but continuing to struggle is even harder. I have no excuses left to give.
My future is just sitting there waiting for me and I am going to get there! That is my why.
Let’s do this!
